Postpartum Blog: Depression|Pump or Die| Pray for Me

I just reemerged from the newborn bubble. I am almost 12 weeks Postpartum. Our new addition, Rylan Lawrence made his debut on

May 20, 2025. I had to abruptly return to work after 6 weeks due to a communication oversight regarding maternity leave policy. I was under the impression I would receive 12 weeks paid leave; as I did with Kingston. Who else is only giving new mothers just enough time to stop wearing diapers themselves  to return to work and be productive? Leave in the comments. Anyway, I am exclusively breast feeding ( again) and would be lying if I said I was not plagued by the overwhelming feeling that my child’s physical and physiological development will be damaged if I supplement with formula. My algorithms have pushed so much content surrounding risks from formula to vaccination, I feel like I need to move to a farm or get a Doctorate to decipher what’s what. Yesterday I spilled 4 ounces and had to hold back tears.

This is proving to be one of the most challenging seasons of my life. Newborn+ toddler + HS Senior. Then sprinkle hormones and any attempt to snap back. I know I’m getting on hubby nerves and everyone is getting on mine. Keep me and my postpartum hair loss lifted in prayer. To all my new mommas/ families in seasons of adjustment. Give grace, laugh often, and cast your burdens on the only one who can truly carry them all. I promise to check in again when I get my head above water.

Xo, Kat